This is why I'm not very competitive.

I can not remember the last time I was this frustrated.

It seems I am doomed to spend the rest of my life at Wal-Mart. Let me explain:

The gym I work at is on this new program thing they like to call, "raising the bar." They have set out this new code of guidelines we have to follow in order to be hired on next fall. These guidelines are pretty reasonable, but some are difficult for someone who has more than one job to support their family. For instance, we must attend every staff meeting and coaches clinic, or we get a strike. (Three strikes, you're fired.) Staff meetings are easy because we have them the first Wednesday every month, and I don't work Wednesday nights - for that vary reason. But Coaching Clinics are much more random. This is much harder for me to accommodate because walmart sets out the schedule three weeks in advance. I didn't find out until last week that there is a clinic tomorrow. Well guess what boys and girls, I picked up a shift at Wal-Mart tomorrow night! Two weeks ago!

With this new program, the gym has decided to "hold auditions" for who ever wants to work there next fall. In addition with being hired on in the fall, we are promised A LOT more pay, and more hours. In case you haven't guessed already, I REALLY WANT THIS!!!! But not all of us are promised a spot. Out of the ten coaches they have now, they only want to take 6-8.

So I decided I'm going to do everything in my power to get one of those positions. Wal-Mart is the only thing standing in my way. But I need Wal-Mart...right now.

When I heard about the clinic, I called my manager up, (who is Mr. Eat-Sleep-and Breathe Wal-Mart) and told him I would have to leave two hours early on my shift. Of coarse he asked why, so I told him.

He got very frustrated. "Isn't this the second time I've had to accommodate your other employer? When are they going to get their act together?" But ultimately he let me off anyway.

****Side Note***
I don't believe this manager is being completely fair. He has no idea how many times the gym has asked me to do something and I've said, "I can't. I have to work at Wal-Mart that day."

After I talked to my manager I called my boss at the gym and asked her exactly what time the clinic is. There was only a small flyer in the office and I glanced at it on my way out. She text me back and said it started a half hour earlier than what I had told my Wal-Mart manager.

I asked her if it was alright for me to wait until I was done with work and she said she would talk to her husband (the gym owner)and see. Which I think means probably not.

I am just so frustrated because I feel like I can't make anyone happy. And I am tired of never being good enough for someone or something. I want to be a full-time coach so bad, but it wouldn't be smart for me to quit Wal-Mart before I am guaranteed that position. But right now it looks like I won't be considered unless I quit Wal-Mart.

Does anyone have anything to say or advise? I'm at my wits end. If you were ever going to leave a comment, now would be the best time.